I find myself struggling with this blogging thing now. Between getting married in 24 days, and my new job taking up my day, bonded with trying to walk daily for health reasons, and finally playing my backlog… I don’t have much time to write blogs anymore like I used to.
Ideas rush through my brain all day long on topics that I want to write about, with no time and no access to a pad or my iPhone… these thoughts disappear by the time I get off.
And when I get off work… it’s like a weight on me has been lifted, a crushing weight that’s held me down all day. I have just enough energy left to get home and find my way to the bed.
I crash for an hour — maybe two, and then once Abby is off work we talk for an hour… then dinner comes… then the evening walk… then the video game backlog….
It’s never…. “Let’s write a blog”.
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I think what has killed a majority of my motivation to write my blog is the fact that I only wanted to write about my “RPG class”, and now that I’ve [found it], it’s no longer something I can continuously repeat.
I have to be more creative or risk talking about the same shit over and over — which can get repetitive and boring.
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Still, I could write about my backlog journey, but that would leave me with updating the blog every 5 seconds.
I have ideas for next year, but my 2022 has been a pretty slow and unplanned (disorganized) year.
I had planned to chill out, not focus on my backlog, and just play whatever I feel like this year.
I don’t like it.
I don’t like the lack of focus and structure.
I don’t like that I haven’t beaten 20 games and it’s October.
The lack of planning and execution… you’ll never clear your backlog library like that.
It’s why I’m really looking forward to 2023.
I plan to beat 50 games that year, and there’s TONS of good shit coming out.
But I’ll definitely be writing about THAT later on in life.
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I think once the stress of getting my wedding over with, the honeymoon is over, Pokémon Scarlet is beaten, we’ve saved for a house, I find a PS5, and 2023’s challenge starts… things may get a little easier.
But as for now? No structure, no plans, just free-balling through the flow of this year.
It’s weird, it’s different, but it’s how things are going right now.
And if my blogs continue to read this poorly for a little while?
It’s because I’m just typing.
